My cycle is starting!

And I'm not talking menstruation! It's ANTM!!!! It's starts tonight! Thank the Lord for TiVO!

Here are some pics to hold you over!

Juggling...

So, there's just a whole lot going on at the moment. Some things in my life are going one way, some are going the other. Some are turning around, some are popping there heads back into my life, some are completely forgotten about, some just aren't what they used to be.

It's like juggling. Everything is up in the air at one time, and jsut when you get a grip on something, it's back up in the air.

But it's not such a bad thing. Things always come back down, and fall right back into your hands.

It's OFFICIAL!!!

So, yah! I'm an official Starbucks barista! I had my certification today, and I'm all certified and junk. Now I can officially be a bitch about coffee! YAH!

Come see me at work! I'll whip ya up a latte!

In a flash...

"Like a month to a flame, burned by the fire." Hmm, Janet really knew what she was talking about.

And it's over faster than it even started. How's that for "moving too fast"? I know - I KNOW - this is not my fault. He said it himself - I'm the best boyfriend. Maybe he thinks he deserves better than the best? Or maybe he knows that he is not worth the best?

I didn't do anything to cause this. I tried to fix all of the mistakes that I made before. Instead of being scared to get burned, he was scared all together. I mean, the light was nice, it made the darkness brighter. But the heat made him sweat. He thought he'd just go up in smoke.

I'm not afraid of fire. I like running my fingers over a flame, feeling the heat, noticing the way that everything looks like water through it. Isn't that ironic?

So, here's to playing with fire.

What my evening felt like...

I'm not a huge fan of the unexpected. It's like a slap in the face.

Minds and Moods.

Startling fact : I'm not a mind reader!

Ok, let me start this way. I get into bad moods. Everyone does! And I know that I am not the most pleasant person when I am in a bad mood. And I hate KNOWING that I am in a bad mood, cause it just makes it even worse.

But I also hate OTHER people in bad moods. And it's because I am not a mind reader. I automatically think that the bad mood is my fault. That I have somehow caused this bad mood. This usually causes me to ask what is wrong - a question that I HATE getting asked when I am in a bad mood. Then that person's mood gets even worse, and a vicious circle forms.

I just hate seeing people in a bad mood. I feel that I am one of those people who USUALLY puts people in a good mood, the kinda person that you are glad to have around.

So, I don't know what to do to fix this dilema. Someone contact that crystal ball.

A tasty treat for ya!

I've SO lost my appetite!

The unfairness of stupidity.

So, being the superly awesome boyfriend that I am, I drove my happy ass over to Baton Rouge last night to see Jonathan. I'd been gone all weekend, so I figured it would be nice to see him, and give him all the presents that I bought him when I was in Boston - a trip I still have to blog about!

Well, I met him at work, and followed him home. Well, Baton Rouge is notorious for traffic. It's everywhere - all the time. Well, we were wating at a light, and it was just rediculous, so he calls.

"I know this is totally wrong, and against everything I say, but follow me."

And we go to cut through a parking lot. No harm. Other people are doing it.

Well, we turn the corner to see cops. Oh yah, we got busted. And not just one cop, like 3 or 4.

So, we get tickets ($132.25 tickets, mind you!) and Jonathan tries to stick up for me telling the cop that I was following him, blah blah blah.

MY thought ... Why don't one of you asshole cops go DIRECT TRAFFIC at the light so people don't CUT THROUGH THE PARKING LOT! Stupid!

So, yah. Just wait at the light. :)

Thoughts on this weekend...

Here's my thoughts about this past weekend...

English poet Thomas Gray once said, "Ignorance is bliss." Well, I know a hell of a lot of blissful people!

That's about it. More details about the Boston trip later!

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Direction...

I'm in Boston on a trip with the school I teach at. The kids are participating in a national drama and debate tournament, and I've come along to help coach and chaperon the kids.

Well, it's the first time that I have traveled since I left tour. Feelings from the past came rushing back as I packed my suitcase and got on a plane. Walking into the hotel last night - it still felt like home. I was so comfortable.

Which is odd to me. I've been off of tour for months now. I'd gotten used to "real" life. I have 2 jobs, a boyfriend ... normalcy.

Well, today we went out. We traveled in groups. I fucking hate groups. I feel that a group of more than 4 people is too much. Well, of course - as is with large groups - no one could decide on what to do, people go cranky cause we weren't doing what THEY wanted to do, and I got pissed off.

And I got a phone call. Rebecca - one of the performance directors from Sesame Street - called to offer me a short term position. I said no. I have a boyfriend who I don't want to leave. I have jobs that I can't just walk away from. I have a life.

But I do look back at those years on the road and remember the fun that I had. When days were spent at the mall and sight-seeing, and nights were spent with a drink in my hand. I miss it - I do.

But I found this online today ...

Looking at the future means you want something. Looking at the past is needing something.

I want what I have now. I want to see where it's going.

Check it out!

Ok, so my brother is a playwright. And right now, he's kinda big shit. He just had one of his plays read in NYC, and now there are plans for it to get produced there. He has also been invited to do one of his plays at the San Francisco Fringe Festival. Yah ... he's big shit!

So, he's started a new play. But you can watch it grow daily. It's called Life/Play, and the idea comes from a woman who wrote a short play a day, and it made it big, so Cody can, too. It's awesome, and he's sending to the NYC Fringe Festival to see how it does there.

Go check it out at http://lifeplay365.blogspot.com

Happy Valentine's Day!

Casting a spell...

Hey look. It's Daniel Radcliffe. Yah, that's right.

It's Harry Freakin' Potter!

He's in Equus in London. And he gets naked.

Why do I feel so dirty right now?

Employee of the Month!

Hey! Guess what?

I got Partner of the Month at work!

WHAT!?! I am so cool!

Don't hate me cause I am a kick-ass barista!

:)

Sour...

Yah, this was my weekend. Sour.

Well, this weekend was the Secret Garden. Overall, it went well, but these past few months have been insane. I'm glad to have a little more time off now. I forgot how stressful theatre can be.

Then, Jonathan came over to visit, since we hadn't been spending much time together with the show going on. Well, it just seemed like the visit took a sour turn, and now I'm feeling like a pretty crappy boyfriend. Yah for me.

So, sorry that I haven't blogged in ages. My mind has just been wrapped around other things, but now that I can relax a bit, I hope to get on here a little more!